byeMiri...

9.15am now
daisy in the house...
forced myself to wake up early*tired.sleepy
damn...waiting...
i'm forcing myself...Don't please Daisy Ling Kok Sing
yes...I can't SHARE*wtf
you can doesn't meant that i can
it's enough...still the same
it's out of my limited..Damn.pissed me off~!!!
it's OVER...
10days to go...
Oh-My-Godness...
i can't imagine how worst it will go within this 10days...
totally lose my direction...
pointless to say more...
try hard...but at last still end everything up...
sigh...
going Brunei later.going Hongkong by Brunei Airlines tomorrow
6 June only i'll be back to Brunei
maybe 6 or 7 June only i will back to Miri
i hope that i'm really can enjoy my trips well
but.i don't think i can...
it's still keep deep in my heart.keep on reminding every second...
sigh...Moodless...

goanna say ByetoMiri.HellotoHongkong

noob

looking down
Noob
something really pissed me off~!!!*damn
repeat-ing
never end
never go
never stop
it's still continue...
it's impossibility...
it's f*ucking suck...
long story untill can write a Novel
no more promises...
more promises.more lies
i don't know how long you still wanna to hides and lies everything...
perhaps it's Too Fun for youuu.
but not me...sorry
don't felt wanna to talk nowdays...
at school.tution.house or wherever...
i don't wanna to listen...
don't say that you're sorry
it's just shitz
if you know that you're sorry...
then please don't repeat it once and Stop all of it Asap.
but you No/don't have/never.it's still continueeee....*l-a-m-e
it's hard for me to accept it...
it's Unexplainable...
Can you change...?
sigh.i don't think so...
hopefully you can.but hopeless...
well...i'll be fine friends...

Appreciate.
We have to learn how to appeciate whatever and whoever by our side.
how to learn from our mistakes, our past.
and to be thankful for every chance given by people. do not mess up with it again and
yea...with the word "appreciate"

伤

能不能就这样
一直下去
到最后。。?
受伤了以后。。。
伤口却留下了一道深到入骨的伤痕
脑海里
依然记得所有的过去。。。
实在难以遗忘
她。。。舍得吗?
就这样算了走了吗。。?
一个人并非只有寂寞与孤独
至少。。。
此时此刻。她的嘴角还是上扬的
但。微笑的背后往往却隐藏了许多不为人知的秘密
那秘密还真的是很可怕
幸福其实很简单
一句谜语
常常就造成了许多的误会
她每天都在想。。。
不停地围绕在复杂的人际关系里
用心拼了命去忘记。解决
希望没有人能再来糟蹋。
因为
她真的很在意
能不能就让她的眼泪停留。。。
她很努力的想要让一切回到原点
可是怎么却越走越远
一波一波的谣言实在让人支离破碎
就连她自己的双眼也看见
她。。。
尝试勇敢去面对。。。
得到的却是一句对不起。。。
难道。。。
人与人之间的一场游戏。。。
就只能用一句对不起来代替所有吗。。?
她。。。
累了。。。
親眼所見的東西未必是事實
耳朵聽到的傳言未必是虛假
時間會讓她看清楚一切
她希望。奢求的只是信任
她。。。
不想再次的受到那无法兌現的承諾

exam

sememster exam is still going on...
sej subjektif just now...
guess what.this is the first paper i had blank in this exam
all i study last few days just gone...
especially.last night....
5days more to go...
fast.near.soonnnn....
excited :)

damn holyshitz....
this's what you want to get...
and you're forced me to treat you that...
do whatever you want if you're pro...
up to you.it's you life...
non on my business...
i've no word can describing you anymore...
i'd rather be a stupid than others...
i try to believe you and trusting you everytime...
no listen to others...
then...
you can lies me.play with me.hides more from me more and more izzit...
perhaps it's fun for you...
BUT NOT ME....
don't come and find me if like that....
i'm busy...
pissed OFF~!!!!
no matter how much or whatever you tell me...
i won't be listen and trusting you easily anymore...
you just make me disappointed on you once and once...
i don't know when you just goanna end up all of that...

damn

damn you...~!!!
when you just goanna end......
once and once...
saw it..
should it be happy...?
N-O....
it's funny but angry more...
cause of what....
you know what you did....
tried to lies from me...
it's not a easy jobs....
sorry.i'm not the daisy lks that just 3years old
can stupid till trusted your explaination everytime...
it's so L-A-M-E
pissed OFF~!!!
don't find me better if you choose them
at least you have give me a comfirmation answer that you have end up with all of them...
i rather than don't know anything and be a Stupid at the sides
you just made me and forcing me to treat you strict...
not on my fault...
try to set you free...but so sorry
i can't did it now...
you just try to lies me more and more...
try to asking yourself deep heart inside...DID YOU...??
that's what you did to me...
i won't be forgive it easily...
i won't be treat you nicely.kindly.politely anymore
i won't be talking much.care much or whatever more
rather been silently and standing just like a flower case at the sides
untill the moment you get what you want at the end...
don't tell me anything sweetness...
all those just SHITZ...
you're really a holyshitz that make my day be more darkness...


english paper today
mg~!!!
it's so hard...
the poem and the short story.blank at all.*(
essay.what question izzit of part one...
example that you're president of Environment Club
then you've to write a talk of ''preserving our water resources''
K-N-S
part two...
more hard for me...
hold class half of them was sleeping.looking around
i choose-d to wrote ''i'd rather funny than beautiful''
hahahaaa....
excited how marks can i get this timeeee.LoL
tomorrow.Bm paper one and two.Sej paper one
kills me please...dead~!!!

can't stop

daisy in the house
didn't go for class this two days
cause of science scream was sitting their semester examamination
ohmygod~!!!
tomorrow.goanna start for sitting my sememster exam untill the day i go Hk
two weeks.*shitz
ihateexam
just killing me
sigh...
nevermind.afterthis...
i'll be going Brunei at next coming Thursday
then going Hongkong by Brunei airlines at next coming friday
can't wait.i hope i can shop hard this time
*peace
anywayz...
i still need to study for sememster exam first*damn

i'm trying and forcing myself...
it's hard and hurts
it's just kills me and made me become emotional nowdays
i'm just so damn f*cking moodless
when i was think-ed back what she have typed and i saw it accidentally last saturday
how bad you're..?
you're just really so so cruel...
how can you..........
i'm really has nothing to say and comment about you.....
my mind just can't stop thinks back those what she had told every second
i just don't felt like typing any words and asking you anything that i want
this two days while i'm chatting with you...
did you realise it...?
don't try to get close and talking alotsa of bullshitz to me
i won't be fall in and forgive so easily...
i just can't speak out my feeling now...
it's complicated...
can't even know what should i do in the next step..
just sleeping.sticking with my bed every moment to make myself forget everything
and forgive what you had did.but it's too bad
i can't do it...
can't understand at all....
i just can't speak out anything...
trying to stay far...
for non-reason...
just feel that i got something to shout-out-loud
trying be positive and believe in myself
it's hard...
weaker daisy...
BIG TROUBLE....

how long..?

how long you wanna to hides all of this...?
you're really standby to dead truely this time..
the day will be soonnn
it's really no more excuse for me
you just standby to waiting the day coming
i'm not a GOOD PLAYER
if you don't want i shut at you...
or try to do something bad at the back of you..
you better STOP IT ASAP
you just continue to do it if you want and you can see our story will be end
that's all...
i'm serious...
i will do whatever i want at the moment i ANGRY
i'm not a simple gal that will simply forgive a person whose betray me easily
how long you wanna to hides all of this...?
how long you wanna to lies me...?
can you tell me please...?
what's wrong..?
damm fucking down...
you're really wanna comes and making troubles with me izzit..?
fine...
i'll playing hard with you untill the GAME IS OVER
i'm really disappointed on you...
see how can you hides from me again this time
fuck you man...
i'm super duper hyper Angry now
not willing to speak with any of you
just feel that i wanna to scold anyone especially you as loud as i can
don't try to making me happy
damm~!!! IDIOTIC
i'm tiring
ended up.lazy...
it's really too much...
untill i lose my direction...
you're really a HOLYSHITZ...
ihateyouuuu...
how can...
you're really cruel...
i'll remember how bad you have treat me...
it's really a very bad memorize....
sigh...
don't wanna to say moreeee...
you can see my laptop become half or in my room dustbin if i online moreee...
i'm really fucking down now...
it's tired for me to acting like i'm stupid.don't even know what's the happen around everyday
sorry for i have been rude....
night everyone...

tiring

it's tiring to cares it much more again
i'm on the way trying
forcing myself...
although it's really hard for me
but I.Do
that's what i had promised myself to do it
it's just kills me and made me getting emo-ing always
tired for guessing.waiting.confusing.and made myself emotional always
i hate argument but why i still end up with arguments?
afterall.the answer i get is...I Don't Know
Sincerity and Honestly is all and what i want
all i need just a true and honesty
there're not those fake and lies
i choose-d to kept all the bad things with me
because i do not want to spoiled anythings
sometimes...
i use to speak out my discomfort
but i learn to keep my discomfort in my deep heart
cause i don't wanna to show anyone the weaker part of me
the only way i can do is just only...
write down all my unhapiness here
perhaps...
i should think about those positive stuff instead of the negative parts
perhaps...
i can think how to stop thinking from thinking

stop typing.stop thinking
it's bullshitz~!!!
peace out&shitzALL...

Hey...
IHATEMAN...

Don't

Don't pretend alot front of me
i hate the way good.sweet then cold then disappear
tried to be foolish sometimes...
but still ended up after few minutes.hours.or days maybe...
i tried hard for solves problem myself
i choose-ed to kept everything silent
as much as i can..
but.it's really out of limit-ed and control-ed
don't comes and mess up with me
don't wait untill the moment i shut to you
i'm tried to stay away from troubles
it's complicated.
which is truth.and which is lies?
lose-ing the direction...
not telling.nevermind.it's okay
see how long can hides everything.all the truth...
i'll calculating...
now.all the truth just FAKE...
won't be listen and believe it easily
just facing my book start from now
or sticking with my sweetie bed
to let's my times pass
rather than thinking those bullshit things around
won't be online often...

it's hard
maybe it's a hobbies.whatever...
i don't wanna to care it...

still

still....

i'm not really happy
and then...
i do like turn my player volume to the max like I am deaf
i do not like wanna to open my mouth and talk with you
please do not try to make me Happy when i'm not Happy.fuck-ing off
i'm willing to hate the fart to make me unhappy.piss-ed off
i do not like to going shopping with any of you.*don't care who you're
i'm not a person that will be forgive a person whose making trouble with me easily
i agree.i'm rude
so what.
i will treat you good if you treat me good of course
i will treat you bad and rude of course if you treat me bad
so.don't try to make any trouble with me
i'm not a easy gal
i will scold you at the front or back of you
as rude as i can.as bad as i can
how cruel am i?
so what.i am who i am.won't be pretend front of anyone
don't care who're you.just do what i wanna do
if you treat a person good.they won't be appreciate it and thanks for you too
so.i won't be a stupid
i don't like and impossible i'll pretend anything that i can't accept.controlling in my mind
of course.i won't be hides anything in my mind when i'm really getting mad with you too
no EXCUSE is allow.it's truth
if you want.you may TRY :)
sometimes..
i'm keeping it silent
but it doesn't meant by i don't mind
sometimes...
i will shut on any of you..
because of i can't controll-ed
it's out of my limit

sigh...
i'm emo now
still the....
guessing.confusing.going.stopping.fowarding.fucking.looking.crying
what's the happen going on
truth or fake?
fact or lies?
still in half sleep mode...

same

still the same
won't be change maybe
getting worst maybe
willing to hide deep-est maybe
it's hard to change maybe
it's impossible to change maybe
they're more important for you maybe
they'll making you more happy and fun maybe
scare for what if you really didn't have do it
at least you have do something at the back of me...
it's truth
just stand up and tell me You Don't have if you really No...
scare for what....
at the same time...
i won't be listen what others saying if you really no too
it's just same
please do remember...
i'll think it carefully which one i goanna believe of course
i'll check it out
of course i'm not a easy person
at last.i still hope that you don't...

i'm absent

yea.
i'm absent again today
the reason is:
-i'm tired cause not enough rest yesterday
-i'm sleepy cause i slept late last night
-my wound getting pain this morning while i wanna to woke up
so at last...
i failed
my alarm rang.i off-ed it
continue stick-ed with my sweetie bed
guess what.i woke up around 12pm this afternoon
kinda tired :(
my mind just empty.down.bored
take out my maths revision book
start-ed to do some revision
since semester exam is just coming soon *18may :(
o-m-g
i'm really need to do more and much and concertrate about the coming spm
since i open my maths revision book today
i just start study form five chapter one:number base*wth
and form four still haven't touched at all yet=.=
aiks.trying my best....
do it well.as much as i can

wentv imperial with kimmy and yan this afternoon
for half hours i think
just go for little shop
buy something.awwww.byemyMoney...

seriously...
i still can't get what's the reason...
why oh why...
may i know it...??

don't worry

arghhhh....
can't wait
i just can't waiting the day to recover my wound
i wanna out for shopping
yesh.i went parkson mega mall yesterday after taking my Visa photo
but just walk for one round
guess what i saw.secret recipe.marrybrown.big apple donuts
hey.enough.i can't eat those fast food at all
too bad.it's too bad
nevermind.im waiting.one week.two week maybe
my wound is just going recover soon
and i can walk now already
im sucess went to school today
and went up to my class that at 3rd floor =.=
but.really tired :(
but still too bad
i can't drive
for one week.or month maybe...
awwww.wtf...
i need a driver....

yes.what i can do
be silent or...
i heard alot again today
from her and them...
but all they told me just the past
so sorry....
doesn't meant anything...
i'm really can't even imagize how can you accept it
and betray this to your past one...
althought it's just past year things and is your past one.i still mind it
scare that you'll betray this to me
scare that it will happen on me too one day
and i'm still like a stupid that don't even know anything
i SCARE
will you do it again to your previous one and now?
hopefully you won't...
don't try to betray me and do something bad at my back
i'm thinking this for the hold afternoon
i'm still worried about it
please don't i tell you
take it serious please...
don't tell me you're old.mature or what always
i don't want to hear it

i'll be fine

i'll be fine soonnnn
wait for me friends...
soon i can gossiping.laughing.playing hard with you guys again
thx for the caring...
i'll take care myself
at least my wound now never as pain like last few days
at least i can walk slowly.talk softly
i'll be going back school tomorrow
try my best.although i don't know i can handle it 8hours or not
but at least i try it
don't want to stay at home anymore
since bui goanna go for working
nobody can accompany me
so.go to school is the best choice
but will go back home early if i can't handle it
cause i can't sit long time :(

ciaooo first...
goanna go for make up and get ready myself
go somewhere for taking Visa photo later*hk trips 29 may :)
arghhhhh.i want go for shopping
i hope i can go later
since lyn say parkson was opening alot of new shop last few days again
byeee to all
missyouall
especially my grandmum.those whose at sibu.imissyourguysalot