boring

Boring
facing my lappie since morning untill night
sleep.wake up.online for gaming.eat then sleep
keep on repeating
and now seems start gain weight*shit
i'm looking forward tomorrow now
it will be a very bad day for myself
but i will try my best bestie for do not showing my weakness to every-one
i will try facing your guys with my smiley face
try my best to solve.facing and settle everything
try to be forgive you
but you just keep repeat your mistaken
what can i do?
how do i need to forgive you once and once?
can you try to change it?
nothing are impossible
just see you want or don't want
i'm not as silly as you think
something is doesn't real for you
in the end you get nothing
who you goanna blame?
think everything carefully please.man

*goanna out alone again later:(
*buying something and goanna eat alone
*girls.i'm waiting your gals for overnite at my house tomorrow.sui~!!!

shopholic

tiring
need have a nap after this post
just reach home
get myself a little shopping just now
went shopping complex alone since everyone are busy
start being shopholic again*damn
spended me around Rm300
shit.my money gone
bought something for my birthday celebration and daily uses stuff
money.money come please.
i can't go bank take out my money anymore
since i take damn alot of money out nowdays
if mummy realise it sure i will be dead*hehe.shhh~!!!

O-M-G
daddy.who was the one who's owner of birthday party oh
seems like the people invited by you are more than mine*LoL
nevermind.it's he little princess 18th birthday*peace

ohya.
to all my dearest friends here:
i could only post the party time here since we couldn't meet each others cause holidays now
the party will be start at 7pm
so please come as early as you can
especially my girls.come at afternoon if can kay.*peace
i need your gals for helping me to do something
Ordered a special square cake at Hot Cross Bun this morning
i am excited for how's the cake look now
just waiting for the day coming.*Hurray
Remember the time is 7pm
come before the Dinner start please.thank you all
if you couldn't find where's the location of my house
just call me up
if you don't have my number.
just leave me down a msg in my chatbox after you read this
thank you.
see you all

*She's sad

Holidays

Hurray~!!!
felt some happy and some unhappy for this Big News this morning
Our school will be close start from today untill next tuesday
Chung hua is the only school in miri that have close from today
cause H1N1
one boy from form two did magnetize H1N1 today
and he's still in ICU room now
o-m-g.how serious it is.can't imagine
hope that you're fine.boy
actually i don't know what happen is going on
just received a news from teachers and schoolmates so suddenly that we start holidays from today
afterthat every students was seems so high.cause we're having holidays now for one week
shitz.i'm happy at the first.cause not need wake up early for going to school again
but.what i goanna do in this one week holiday
sleeping...??*damn
sigh.i think the month in July i was only go school for never more than 14days
it's almost everyday i did absent*LoL
i agree.i'm lazy
but i did got my own reason for absent.shhh~!!! it's secret.*haha

arghhh~!!!
Saturday is coming soon
i don't wish the day coming
i HATE saturday
and this week will be a very bad week for me*FUCK OFF
i do see everything more and more clearly
i will never forget what did you said everytime*damn you
sigh.i don't wanna to say it more again
just kinda bad mood now
i'm just forcing myself to do everything that i don't like
more and more over you did
more and more girls is around
you don't thought that i'm silly here
up to you.just a Holyshitz*Fuck off~!!!
nevermind.it's okay
i'm fine
stand here alone all the time.as tough as i can
you just go ahead with your busy life
i would be not going to bother you anymore.i do althought i don't like
*How long you just wanna to change it..?
*how many times i still need to forgiveness your mistaken.won't you feel tired?

Girls..
don't be so secretively nowdays can
don't keep planning those ojibala shitz idea again
i Hate your gals.my girl.*haha
i just need you all to come with all of your Real heart
not need those shitz present.
i will throw it..*LoL

yesh.i get my car back tomorrow maybe.
i wanna out for get some little shopping recently
who can be my partner
i need it very much
skinny jeans.dresses.high heels.pants
o-m-g.i need it very much.:(
POOR.

bad mood

kinda bad mood now
perhaps something happen between us is getting more worst and worst
just cause that you don't wanna to change it
i can't understand
why you can't just change it since you know that i dislikes it
i really can't get it
and why you do lies at me everytimes.once and once
i really can't get it
sigh.
tears is still fallin
sleeping is the only way
cheers up daisy.

I'm looking forward this coming Saturday
althought i can estimate that it will be a very bad day for myself
since i couldn't get any conclusion
can't get any hapiness
but i will still trying my best to facing every of you with my smiley face
not matters how moody am i have.
no any mood for planning it at all
will be busying the hold day
going breakfast at Boulevard restaurant with gang of classmates
then going Sushi King for our lunch.*yes.Sushi king is opening on This Saturday
night time will be my 18years old birthday celebration with all of my schoolmates
just organize a buffet party at home
nothing special.
that's all
don't wanna to write more.
moodless*

black sunday

Blackie Sunday

''Nobody is allow to come and mess up with her''

Can't stop the tears from fallin at this night

You're really damn....

Shitz OFF~!!!

yes.it's...

yes...
maybe it's right
or maybe it's just fake
someone strange do msg me in my msn this morning
do heard something
never reply him more
cause i'm really shocked when he told me some...
it's past few years.and this few months
straightly set my msn status to busy
i'm not mad at it.but do have little
i'm just cares for it.
why you wanna to do that since you know that everybody around do know you're playful
you're just keep on repeating your bad habits
and your name just keep on spoiled by others and became topics in others mouth
yes.perhaps you're really a playboy
you don't wanna to change it
nobody can help you
just let you be it...
go ahead with it...
untill the day you realise everything behide do..............
i have no word can describing at you
just up to you
i wouldn't care it much
it's all non of my business
since you don't wanna to change it
delete all and stop everything if you really do change yourself
if not...
i don't know what can i do and i want anymore...
just stand alone everytime better

go for it

blogging time
it's so damn boring for me now.almost getting crazy with something happen*damn
i've been facing my lappie the hold day
just keep on gaming and watched hk drama
kinda tired now.and i just sign in my blog
my mind remind me that it's times out for you to get little some update
so now i'm here for blogging to updates some recent feeling and news

first at all..
i wanna to know now.
it's Where're you going?
can you give me some more reasonable answer when you reply me later or tomorrow?
can you letting me to trust you more?
can you don't be so so so egoistic everytimes?
can you be honest everytimes?
can you think of my feeling before you do everything?
can you please changes for me everything that i dislike you to do?
can you be honest with me in everything?
can you don't try to cheating or hiding everything from me anymore?
can you don't give me a answer about between reality and unreality anymore?
can you please think everything of what you've done or doing around carefully?
can you don't make me worry at you everytime when i couldn't find you again?
can you let me not to think too much and negatively when i couldn't find you or you're chatting or finding others everytimes?
can you prove to me everything at the front of me in a short-time?
can you stop and delete those networking?
can you give me some-more reasonable answer when you answer me everything that i has ask you everytimes?
can you don't let me keep on guessing around when i can't get any truth answer from you?
CAN-YOU-DO-IT-ALL?
i hope you can.but it's Hopeless.
it's so hard for me to acceptable.believeable and go through with my life that with Smarter Smile recently.
Sometimes.
i have to pretend something that i do really care like i don't really care
actually i'm care it.but i do never and force myself not to saying it out
I'm looking forward day by day
at last.i still can't get everything
perhaps it's just become more worst and worst
Trying to be myself and go on with my feeling peacefully
Can i do it?*i don't think so.it's hard
Please remember.there're nothing to hide.
nobody will know what will happen in the next minutes and moment
how could i survive when i'm alone all the times?
can't stop the tears from fallin sometimes
i used to be so fine when you walked into my life
i tried to reach out for you just to be with you
but.nowdays and this time.my heart is breaking and hurts,disappointed for what've you done and doing around everydays
*Conclusion:She not need a Boyfriend.She just need a REAL MAN.She just need is a REAL MAN that really cares and loves her with all his HEART.

Second.
i'm so damn UNLUCKY today.
awww.bullshitz man
headche since sunday untill now
flue was started came to visit me this morning
went 2020 for breakfast with all of my classmates
there're almost hold 5a3 students over there.
i'm late and i was the last one whose reached there.*paiseh.overslept
then everyone went stadium cause it's our school sports day
i do went back home cause i forget to wear school t-shirt*ok.fine
when i was the way drove back home
get shocked by the car at my back
damn lori at the front break down at the corner suddenly
four of car at the back tak sempat break down
what can i do
i was driving camry that time tim
i just can drive out to the line immediately.but how know it's one car coming at the front*shitz
the small little kelisa at my back more scary.
he know that he can't break down at the right time since he drove so fast and nearly from my car
so he drove and break down at the road side as only way he can do
if not my car sure kena bang by him
it's too over scary
afternoon.my auntie was came and visited me
awww.shitz.now i am suffering with it.*damn
sigh.
lying on my bed the hold morning and afternoon
when i woke up for walked to downstairs take some drinks
i was fall down and the staircase
O-M-G.wtf
it's okay~!!!
just now i went out for fetched my brother back home at pelita
when the way i back home
there're Police Traffic blocked at the pelita highway
wtf~!!! i been blocked of course
cause never wear safety belt always
as usual.i just gave rm10 to the Shitz police traffic
tonight and now.
i'm sat and facing for my lappie the hold night
where did you going?
what're you doing?
i'm starting to guessing
no online.msg no reply*damn
can you please telling me and let me know before you're sleeping or going out next time?
i'm lazy to hear explanation from you sometimes
cause it's so hard for me to trusting
i do accept it but i'm still care and mad it deep in my heart
i'm just telling out all the truth
since i saw everything more and more clearly day by day
sigh
tell me everything that you know and things that you have changes or done if you ever appreciate this relationship

still alive

hello...
daisy is still alive in miri here
busy for watching drama and gaming recently
everything still the same
no prove=no believe
no prove=no forgive
life's SUCK
nothing special to update
if hard to expression my feeling here again
damn
ciao first.
going out

快乐

她...
快乐吗?
或许是
或许不是
她
很犹豫
找不到答案
找不到出路
不停的争执
不停的怨言
不停的逃避
不停的忘记
不停的迁就
不停的放弃
这些都是短暂的
自己骗自己的感觉一点都不好受
最近
她很宅
几乎一天二十四小时
除了上学补习以外
其他事情能避免的就避免
能逃跑就逃跑
除非是真的有需要才会心不甘情不愿的出去
她开始习惯这些日子
利用睡觉.gaming来消磨时间
她也知道
这样的生活没有意义
当...
她已习惯
高中统考即将来临
她很期待
能飞多远就多远
每天都期待着下一天的来临
距离十八岁生日还有将近三个星期
她会过得开心吗?
她并不这么觉得
要的不是一份贵重的礼物
只是希望是充满真心的
而不是只是为了要补回一切
现在时间写着0747pm
五个小时前
到现在
没有任何的回应
也许是习惯
也许已不在
也许在忙
这些都是理由
不必做些没用的猜测
发完这篇帖子
继续gaming
累了就睡
不用去烦恼
要来就来
要走就走
随便
她也可以做的比你更随便
在学习当中
她也许很贱
无所谓
只要她个人快乐

trying

stop all the shitz please
she do not want to know everything
she is trying to stand there all the way alone by herself
trying hard
at last.she choosed to nomore friendster.
untill now.she just on her facebook for playing typin maniac.restaurant city and etc..
she choose to on her skype one weeks once for keep contacts with those hometown's friends
she choose to sleeping hold the days
she choose to reject everyone that have texting her in msn
sometimes.she off her hp
sometimes.she never want to reply any msg
she just do whatever she like as long as she happy
she is trying to be stubborn
she is trying to be egoistic
she is trying to learning indepedent
soft-spoken is not what she can do
cause she is not a suave person'she's not match to be it too
she will only to treat someone politely if you're treating her good
she is not naive at all
she is just trying to be more mature
life is just hard.unfair and cruel
she is just choosing to living in silence
she is just trying to learn ''why?'' of the things
she can't understand everything
she get lies.betrayal
it's a confusing situations,humbugs,vague or unpredictable authority
yes.just like what someone told she just now
trying to be forgive and forget it
but it's not the first time.second time or third time she do it
it's alots of many times
what she get at the last still the same and never even change
she is really disappointed for everything
untill now
she can't speak out her feeling at all
there're no-one avaiable to be her best listener
she reject all calls from everyone.not matters who you're
she never reply any msg not matters in msn.facebook or phone
she is just sit and facing her lappie blogging with full of her tears that keep dropping down on her face
what's the matter for lies? can someone telling her please?
do not ask her why happen like this everytime
trying asking Someone,
why everytime you know that you and her would be end up with quarrel after she know that you were cheating her you still continue doing it
why you know that she dislike it yet you are still doing it
can you just change for her not matter how hard it is?
perhaps she is just imaging and it's impossible too
she said that just go ahead with your life like how you like it to be
it's just fake
she was just too angry and speak out everything that she wouldn't like
actually she is still cares it very much
but she just forcing herself not to be it
sigh.
can just leave her alone..?

She have alot of imperfections,but she'll do anything trying to avoid all the mistakes

bad news

damn holyshitz
received damn alots of bad news today

first.
i received few msg from my schoolmates while i arrived home just now
it's all same and typed in chinese words
it's about few students from my school that have been kena H1N1*wtf
nevermind
perhaps it's a very good news for me too
the reason is daisy can absent and sleeping in the house again

second.
pc fair will be on 31 July.1 august and 2 august
Kns betul
the reason is my 18th earlier birthday celebration will be on 1 august
alots of friends have to works in pc fair
that's meant alot of them can't attend my birthday celebration
arghhhh~!!!!
nvm.at least my girls still around with me
others will be celebrat on 3 august again

third.
my daddy
oh-my-god
do you know what did he telling me just now
he just booked the Taipei air ticket without my permission this afternoon
damn pissed me off
he bought a air ticket on 12feb-23feb 2010
it's more than 10days.*damn
arghhhh
i don't want to go.can?
i don't care how cheap of the air ticket
i want to stay at sarawak
nonono...
don't go.pleaseeee
aiks.
it's the one that straightly turned my mood down the hold night

1 august
i'm waiting
shitz.my girls.
stop those stupid and shitz idea
little scare for the day coming
since all of you seems like so secret nowdays
ahhhhhhhh~!!!

乱

很乱
脑袋开始思考
许许多多的问题与事物不停的浮现
时间写着八点零十五分
人影依然看不见
很多的可能在这之中
但是仍然坚定最有可能性的一个
也许你们真的是那么的难以忘记
也许真的还没完
也许真的那么重要
能不能也许没有也许
如果没有如果
那该有多好
实在难以继续的猜测下去
许许多多的也许与如果
下个小时或今夜又或许明日
她又会得到什么样的解释与答案
相信所得到的一定都会是你意想不到
且是千真万确不能去相信的
残忍的回答
一场骗局能换来什么?
也许坦白真的有那么的一点辛苦
搞不懂.不明白.想不通
到底做了这一切为的是什么?
又能得到又或者能换取什么?
也许只是要为了寻找快乐
而却没有为他人的感受去着想
他是那么的自私自利
也许这是一种个人性格
她却无法去忍受
慢慢放手
将错就错
直到所有一切改变的那一天
日子的来临.将会让所有的一切回到原点
耐心等候.包容
忘了他.他和她
还记得.那一天.那一夜
她狠狠的哭了一整夜
泪与水快分不清
只能靠着小嘴来呼吸
他尝试去解决.逃避
结过换来挨骂
他答不出.尝试道歉
但依然摆脱不了一切
毕竟所有的一切都是有真凭实据
叫人如何遮掩
解释就是掩饰
掩饰就是事实
不是她的疑心重
而是无端端生活既然活在人们的嘴里
不是单单只能视而不见.听而不闻
而是事情的发生会不断在你的心理回应着
活在从来没有一个人支持过的日子里
她不会忘记所有与曾经
想想两个月前
大胆接受十八年来人生的第一次的手术
住院的那三天.在家修养得四天.发生了不少的事件
流下不少的眼泪
受了不少的苦
她不会忘记真正动这么大的一个手术的真正原因
他到底还记不记得
因为谁.因为什么事.使她进院
差点就没命.幸好有医生的及时抢救
在手术室的两个小时.白白睡了两个小时
过后张开双眼的感觉一点都不好受
眼泪不停的使唤
三人的秘密与约定.从来没有忘记
他敷衍的那张脸
说出无数的谎言
她支撑不了
选择了逃避与离开
这样下去不是办法
她会尝试.慢慢发现
从今以后
她不会是个好女孩
她再也不会是个好情人
她会是自私自利的
她不会在留下任何的同情
因为那并非属于她的工作
不会再有任何的相信在其中
因为所做的一切
得到的却是欺骗与背叛
这种滋味一点也并不好受
就好比今夜
此时此刻
一人在线上
谁又会了解
他或许在那儿快活
她却在某角落不停的猜测
下个小时下一天
依然得不到所想要得到的
或许他会利用聊天.好久不见来做为解释
她会慢慢尝试习惯
她会尽量慢慢尝试放手
这是唯一能做的完美结局
相信他.她办不着
答案简单.她并非是个简单少女

happy belated birthday.anthea

happy belated birthday to miss Anthea Liew here
paiseh for late post it up*peace
wishes your all the best in year 2009 and your sweet seventeen
hey.you're still the most yougest one.

quite busy this few days
not enough sleep at all
almost sleep around 4am everynight
and wake up around 6am*wtf
my face*ohmygodness
don't ask me to look at my face in mirror
eyes bags.pimple somemore*damn
saturday gals
i'm waiting for this coming saturday night.suiiii

it's lies and hides
this's how you treat your love one
this's how you care someone that you love
excuse is still excuse
i'm not going to forgiving it
at least prove everything front of me
i don't wanna to live with such kind of complicated life
it's just make my life suck
i hate there're someone to be promise breaker or betrayer surround of my life
it's enough
stop cried please...
i am just forcing myself to do everything that i don't like every moment
whatthefuck...