12pm,12sept

In love,in love

*I'm loving this pic much for unreasonable*peace

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Saturday,

12pm now,12September

it's damn boring

i'm now sitting front of my lappie and start blogging bullshit rubbish here

nothing to do,

everyone are busy study,working,dating,sleeping and etc...

and i'm sitting here all the times alone whole the times

how pity is it?

is still suffering with my sickness

i'm scares and worries bout it untill losing confidence to facing it

ohnoo.and i have finish take all my medicine this morning

will it really recover after this?

will it really just a normal causes?

hope so...

but the percentage is so so low and less=(

how bad is it?

have you ever think why and what happen with causes all this that does happened one more times?

you never,and you're egoistics honestly

you never care,and you're still go on with your life peacefully with them every moment days and nights

you never ever worry about it,you never ever care it.

it's just a very little small care you have done

have you ever think what will going on and how worst is it if it does really on work second times? and think it what will i get and goanna faces this all in the future?

yea.you NEVER

because it's happened on mine,not you,

so you don't need have to care it so much,just show a little care is enough

is it truth?

because everything that have happened doesn't affect your life and future,so you don't need have to care it,is it?

you didn't got any authority to judge me,

cause you're not good enough,

and you doesn't understand my feeling at all,

cause the one whose goanna suffers for the sickness and painess is not you,

the one whose lose everything in the future is not you,

so you can't understand it at all,

can't even understand the reason of why i don't wanna go for it and just faces it with full of confidences.

the secret sickness is really makes me crazily

i can't share it at all to anyone,

end up with full of tears on my faces,

body is getting weak and weakness,

ever fainted in the house honestly for a short times,

have been lose 2kg this few weeks,

since i only get one meals per days.

i'm extremely tired,can i just get it out slowly,put it down,

i'm tired with this kind of complicated status,

i'm tired with my sickness too,

seriously,even one day have dead cause sick or others you doesn't know it too

cause you're busy spending whole the time days and nights with all of them that i hate

i felt wondering,wouldn't you feel guiltily when you do all this?

is wonder are you a real human?

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sorry friends,

hahaha,

i really shocked when saw my name in capital letter in someone msn list just now,

it's really a very first time that my hp no batt been almost per days,

since yesterday untill an hours ago,

i really didn't got off my hp kay,

my hp is really no batt,

the reason is i used up all my times on my bed and slept

since i doesn't felt well,

so i didn't got touch my hp at all,

that's why even my hp no batt i don't know too

forgive my very first time,paiseh*hehe

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received my beloved called yesterday

i'm still considering now,

i will make a decision for all of you as soon as i can,

since only six days left,

i really hope that i can make it,

but i just can't really go,

let's the times cure everything,

i do really miss you all,

it's really a very suprised and very first time i get the acception

since i does asked and get the permission once and onces,month and months

a small small excited now...

imiss Sibu

imiss grandma

imiss aunties and uncles

imiss cousins

imiss friends

imiss girls and boys

imiss babes

imiss kampua

imiss kompia

imiss 'hun nga'

imiss 'poh pian'*yummy

imiss shopping times

imiss the foods from Rh hotel

imiss cheese cake from Tanahmas

imiss lots of foods from 'qing san'

imiss many many and lotssss=)

imiss everything there...

towards,towards,towards...

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-End-

-12.46pm

-goanna ciao for nap,damn boring