regret

*secretly took these all photo at Salsa Fashion House,Sibu while helped aunt for work last tuesday:)))
*kinda missing everything of there badly

in miri now,
arrived miri around 6.30pm last saturday,
seriously i'm damn regret-ing to came back here on that night
honestly,
cries so hard this few nights,
i'm boring here...
tried my best manage to hold my tears in airport
but still Failure at last.
thought and hope i can get more happiness while i reach miri on that night,
but......
just all the happened came across to me suddenly
went Season meet up my classmates and went club with some old friends
doesn't speak so much and i just keep everything silent
manage to hold my tears untill the moment i reach home and stepped in my bedroom
what a frustrated night for me?
i don't know:(
slept around 6am in the morning yesterday which is Sunday and stayed at home the whole day.
went out around 2 or 3pm and drove myself alone whole the way in Miri,
no place can go,
ended up and went back home sleep again
switched my phone off and lyed on my bed whole day and night in the house
seriously no appetite for me to eat and drink
i brought a small bottle of water and putted it on my bed,
but i never even drink it.
i slept and woke up just for checked my facebook nofitications.
i'm extremely tired and feeling so damn boring here
where can i go...
where and what are you doing?
where all my friends going?
don't i know...
i spent all of my money in Sibu and i'm poor now
how much i wishes i can fly back to Sibu now..
iimissthere...
iimissmygrandma,aunts,cousins,relatives,and friends there
i need someone for a talk here seriously
doesn't feeling well at all here,
my wound is so pain nowadays,
i don't know why..
why oh why? tell me please?
kinda suffering on it..when can it will be recover?
do you still remember the deep scars left on my body?
who and why i will get that?
i won't forget the days i stayed in the ward
the wound which does makes me suffering on it untill now..
seriously so damn pain..guess no one can feel such kind of painess
it's extremely painfulness..
how many days i still goanna stay in Miri?
Christmas eve is around the corner,4days more,
who and where i goanna celebrate it?
i just want to be alone at home and switch my phone off and sleep in the house
i can't walk proper and perhaps just can walk like 15minutes,
causes of my wound..DAMN!!!
i don't know what's the happen going on at all,
i scared to go somewhere to check and have a look anymore,
i scared i will get some report which i doesn't want to know again.
how,what and where i can despression my feeling now?
don't i know..
i'm tiring,
my wound is so pain,
fever and gastic is come and visit me now,
goanna stop here and go for sleep.


*can you undetstand?